To you my dearest Penguin,
There are so many things I want to say to you in this letter despite the fact that I have given you so much of my words already. But you see my love, this is the only way I know how when it comes to genuinely expressing my feelings. You know very well the comfort I find in words and how I have always loved the beauty of writing. Do not be jealous, but it is in fact, my first love. I have always believed that words are reflections of someone’s heart and whole being so why not use it to deliver a message on this very special day. So here it is. My open letter to you; on our second year anniversary.
I apologize for having to write this letter to you in public but I think it’s okay. First, because I don’t have the luxury of readers anyway in this blog. Second, because for those very few who will come across this letter, I would like them to see how it is to be in love. And third, I would love to let the world know how much I love you so. Cheesy as it may sound, but as always, it is completely and utterly true.
My dearest darling, I would like to thank you first and foremost, for the most wonderful couple of years that we have been together. I still feel like it’s longer than that but for the sake of it, let’s leave it at that. You have given me so much happiness and I couldn’t be more thankful for having you in my life. Remember the other night when I asked you what you want to wish for for Christmas and you have answered me the most beautiful thing? It really made me tear up — not because I am just emotional — but because I feel so grateful for having someone like you in my life. Your heart is just so pure and true and it still makes me wonder sometimes why God had given me such a blessing when I’m nowhere near being worthy of it. But for whatever reason it may be, I am glad and will be forever thankful for it.
Thank you my love for never giving up on me. You and I both know how much of a pain I can be sometimes (or even most of the time!), yet here you are still. Well, of course you can’t leave now since we’re married (so that could be one of the reasons you’re still here hehe) but all these times, you’re just there. I have done you wrong (more often than not) but you always choose to forgive me despite that. That is why I try my best to never do you wrong anymore because I want to at least be a little deserving of the love you are willing to give.
I want you to also know that you have been one of the reasons I want to still keep living. You know how difficult it can be for me because of what I deal with personally, but because of you, I choose to stay. Everyday, I choose to stay because of you. You have given me another chance at life, so thank you. I don’t know if I ever told you this, but darling, you have saved me. My head is a mess and my life is madness, but since you came along, it has been at peace most of the time. I still have my moments but because of you, they became easier to bear. The load does not feel as heavy and life does not seem so bad as it used to. You gave me something to look forward to every single day.
These are only a few of things I am thankful for because of you. I feel like enumerating the rest would just make this letter a little too tedious to read so perhaps we can leave it as so.
Moving forward, we are now getting closer to a brand new chapter of our lives together. It won’t be easy, I can tell you that. There will be a lot of bumps, twists and turns, along the way. It won’t be perfect; nothing ever is. But it should be fun. It’s a new journey completely new to both us so I hope we’ll always have each other’s back no matter what. It should be fun trying to experience things for the first time. There will be plenty of mistakes, but at the same time, plenty of lessons to be learned. I’m scared, I will admit that, but I am also hella excited for it. I hope you feel the same way, too.
For the past two years, you have given me so much to remember. Now, I am looking forward to so much more with you. It will be great! You and me againts the world, figuring out the married life, one mistake at a time. As long as we’re together and we don’t sleep mad at each other, I think we will be just fine.
So here’s to us, my love! Two years with you has been such a wonderful experience. I can’t wait for many, many, many more years of adventure, travels, cuddles, excitement, fights (hopefully less!), hugs, kisses, and love with you.
You have my heart, right from the start my dearest. Thank you for always taking care of it. I love you more than I can ever show, tell, or write about. Happy anniversary to us.
Love always and forever,