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I saw in one of the accounts that I am following on Instagram that it’s National Proposal Day. It’s probably just in the States but since I am one of the lucky girls who have been proposed to, I thought why not share my story as well ­čÖé

Well, my proposal story is definitely not like the usual ones you hear from people or see on videos uploaded on Facebook or IG. He didn’t kneel on one knee or made a huge banner or brought a bouquet of roses. It’s kind of funny which makes me like it even more.

It was his first time seeing me after being in a long distance relationship. We went on a date and it was also our first time to do it alone (without a family member of mine tagging along) so it was really nice. We went to a famous park in my home town to see a Christmas Light Show. It was about to be Christmas when he visited and he told me he likes Christmas lights so I decided to take him there.

We were having dinner, waiting for the show to start. After finishing up, he placed his hand on the table; closed as if holding something. He asked me to open it but knowing him and how playful he is, I hesitated. I kept asking him if it was a bug or something gross because that’s just the type of guy that he is.

He kept saying no and asking me to open his fist. In the end, I did. And to my surprise, there it was. The ring; a shining, shimmering, splendid diamond ring.

He didn’t ask me to marry him. The million dollar question wasn’t popped that night. We’ve always talked about getting married someday and I guess the ring was just the formality for it. He knew how I always wanted to have an engagement ring so he gave me one.

Another funny thing was that the ring was too big for me! Since we never really met before, he wasn’t quite sure how big my finger was. I had to wrap some tissue paper on it so it won’t fall off when I wear it.

It’s not as romantic as what you would see in a movie but I guess that’s what makes it special for me. It’s unique and something that is so fun to talk about. He could’ve knelt down in the middle of the crowd while we were watching the light show but, no. He preferred to keep it between the two of us, sweet and intimate.

But, regardless of how he had done it, I would’ve still said ‘Yes’.

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Could this be the downside of being an introvert?

A few days ago, I saw an Instagram story of one of my friends in high school and she was hanging out with one of my best friends then.

This made me a little sad.

Sometimes I think this might be the downside of being an introvert. Time to time, I see my high school or college friends/schoolmates hanging out and I’m still just by myself. I mean, right now I am thousand of miles away from them but when I was back home, I never got to do those things with them.

After high school and college, I rarely went out with my friends again. I think I went out with them twice or even once after we graduated. When I graduated in high school, it was hard for me to hang out with my high school friends because they were going to colleges that are very far from mine and I wasn’t very good at commuting by myself. Plus, I wasn’t allowed then and I was wearing my back braces so it was hard for me to really travel.

When I graduated college, I saw my friends very rarely too. I last saw my closests friends one year ago. And we saw each other after years as well. I understand we were now busier being ‘adults’ and with our jobs but still. We should have the time. Or at least, we should make it if we want to.

I’m just thinking that I don’t have anyone I can call if ever I’d like to have coffee with. Or someone to go to movies to. It’s just my sisters. And now, my husband. But there’s no one that I can really just call up like how they do in books or movies.

And it’s not my friends’ faults. I know it’s entirely mine.

I cut myself out from that world all because I prefer being alone. I like being alone.

But I guess sometimes, we all want something else. Sometimes, I don’t feel like being an introvert.

Well, what can I do now? I can’t try to reconnect now because like I said, I am currently one plane ride away from everyone else. So I would have to deal with this like an adult.

Meaning — write about it. What else can an introvert with no friends do anyway?

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Hello, from India

This is my first post as I am in India. I know. I’m here. I’m back. Again.

Well, given that my husband lives here, I should be here. And this time, I will be staying here for long. I do want to come back to the Philippines since everyone in my family is there, but this is for another story. And being that I am already feeling sad since I opened my laptop, I don’t want to talk about home. At least, for now.

So yeah, I am here again in India. I got her last 1st of February and I will be staying here until God knows when. My visa is for six months but I don’t know yet if I can extend here or what.

We are now having our own place! I am actually writing on this fabulous desk he bought for us. I feel so professional in this tiny office of ours!

The house looks amazing! I couldn’t find the right words to describe it but it was definitely worth the wait! I love every corner of it and I can’t wait to start filling it up with things and designs. But most importantly, I can’t wait to start a whole new chapter of my life with him here.

We still need to buy so many things for the house. We went out today to buy some things but still, there are so many others we didn’t buy in the mean time. Lack of time, and also lack of money (hehe).

I will start working next week. For now, I’m trying to cherish and enjoy the moments without the busy days at work. We still need to take care of the house so I need these days off, tbh.

I miss my family, though. I wish they are just a few blocks away so they can easily come and visit me in this new home. I think they would like it a lot and that they will be a bit proud of me for having something like this.

But like I said, let’s leave my family for another story. I don’t want to wallow in too much sadness since it’s been a long day.

Well, here it is. My first post in India in my new home. Let’s see what happens from here on out.

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Late Night Anxiety

It’s never easy to just stay up at night, letting your demons eat you. People think it’s drama. Some will say is nothing to be concerned about. But if they only knew.

If they only knew how much you’d want the voices to stop. How you would just want to close your eyes and fall asleep right away so the demons will go away. If they only knew how you want to stop crying, and hitting your head in the wall, because it’s just too much.

If they only knew how difficult it is to be like this and just what it is that you go through, then maybe, just maybe, they’d be more patient. They’d be more understanding. They’d stick by you a little longer.

It’s never easy to stay up all night. But here I go again tonight.

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To The I One Love The Most: An Open Letter


To you my dearest Penguin,

There are so many things I want to say to you in this letter despite the fact that I have given you so much of my words already. But you see my love, this is the only way I know how when it comes to genuinely expressing my feelings. You know very well the comfort I find in words and how I have always loved the beauty of writing. Do not be jealous, but it is in fact, my first love. I have always believed that words are reflections of someone’s heart and whole being so why not use it to deliver a message on this very special day. So here it is. My open letter to you; on our second year anniversary.

I apologize for having to write this letter to you in public but I think it’s okay. First, because I don’t have the luxury of readers anyway in this blog. Second, because for those very few who will come across this letter, I would like them to see how it is to be in love. And third, I would love to let the world know how much I love you so. Cheesy as it may sound, but as always, it is completely and utterly true.

My dearest darling, I would like to thank you first and foremost, for the most wonderful couple of years that we have been together. I still feel like it’s longer than that but for the sake of it, let’s leave it at that. You have given me so much happiness and I couldn’t be more thankful for having you in my life. Remember the other night when I asked you what you want to wish for for Christmas and you have answered me the most beautiful thing? It really made me tear up — not because I am just emotional — but because I feel so grateful for having someone like you in my life. Your heart is just so pure and true and it still makes me wonder sometimes why God had given me such a blessing when I’m nowhere near being worthy of it. But for whatever reason it may be, I am glad and will be forever thankful for it.

Thank you my love for never giving up on me. You and I both know how much of a pain I can be sometimes (or even most of the time!), yet here you are still. Well, of course you can’t leave now since we’re married (so that could be one of the reasons you’re still here hehe) but all these times, you’re just there. I have done you wrong (more often than not) but you always choose to forgive me despite that. That is why I try my best to never do you wrong anymore because I want to at least be a little deserving of the love you are willing to give.

I want you to also know that you have been one of the reasons I want to still keep living. You know how difficult it can be for me because of what I deal with personally, but because of you, I choose to stay. Everyday, I choose to stay because of you. You have given me another chance at life, so thank you. I don’t know if I ever told you this, but darling, you have saved me. My head is a mess and my life is madness, but since you came along, it has been at peace most of the time. I still have my moments but because of you, they became easier to bear. The load does not feel as heavy and life does not seem so bad as it used to. You gave me something to look forward to every single day.

These are only a few of things I am thankful for because of you. I feel like enumerating the rest would just make this letter a little too tedious to read so perhaps we can leave it as so.

Moving forward, we are now getting closer to a brand new chapter of our lives together. It won’t be easy, I can tell you that. There will be a lot of bumps, twists and turns, along the way. It won’t be perfect; nothing ever is. But it should be fun. It’s a new journey completely new to both us so I hope we’ll always have each other’s back no matter what. It should be fun trying to experience things for the first time. There will be plenty of mistakes, but at the same time, plenty of lessons to be learned. I’m scared, I will admit that, but I am also hella excited for it. I hope you feel the same way, too.

For the past two years, you have given me so much to remember. Now, I am looking forward to so much more with you. It will be great! You and me againts the world, figuring out the married life, one mistake at a time. As long as we’re together and we don’t sleep mad at each other, I think we will be just fine.

So here’s to us, my love! Two years with you has been such a wonderful experience. I can’t wait for many, many, many more years of adventure, travels, cuddles, excitement, fights (hopefully less!), hugs, kisses, and love with you.

You have my heart, right from the start my dearest. Thank you for always taking care of it. I love you more than I can ever show, tell, or write about. Happy anniversary to us.

Love always and forever,